It would be a nice trip to Europe with friends, nice people but I couldn't do it. Fuck! I feel so stupid. Actually around these days I'm totally out of my mind. Everything is like I don't know, out of blue. I know, I used to be a well-organized person but not now. I lost that part of myself.
I have to look back on my past. Like 8 or 9 years ago. What a perfect person I was. YES, definitely perfect.
Even my depressing high school couldn't take away my energy. Through these years to now on, I have become a neurotic, easily distracted person.
Since somebody has gone, I'm fucked up!
I live. I can say that I go on my life. But it is not the same. I'm tired of people, dealing with problems.
I have strength, don't worry about me. Just because I'm abandoned by you, it doesn't mean that my happiness faded away.
I'm happy but less. A little less? No, much.
I miss you.
Look what I do, I'm trying to make you hear my voice.
Where are you? What are you into? Did you meet some nice people like me?
I was nice! but not now, not now.
Look how I put myself into a miserable position. I'm hanging around stupid social networking web sites, blogging like I need to get all the attention.
Devastated since you walked away...
Sleeping with stupid guys, sometimes. But I cannot do it anymore, either.
I loved you, man! I loved you!
Be straightforward with me, answer me..
Wherever, whoever with you are..
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